Sunday, September 18, 2005
burnt - hammers and hearts by daphne loves derby
might as well update since my entries are in urgent need of emotion.
i'm sad. sad sad sad
and dont think its about the clique thing la.
this entry is about a certain someone who's there, but not quite there
i'm sad. and its your fault so i guess i'm blaming you indirectly and i know its quite mean cos you didnt really do anything. its just your exsistance. your just there for me to get jealous or angry or even depressed. I find that quite schocking cos this is a stupid reason to get depressed over but thank you lucky stars i'm not type or person who slits their wrist and cries for days. thank you lucky stars i'm the kind that hides my emotions and only vends it out to my good friends and luckily they're the kind that just laughs at me and then i'll realise how stupid i am to actually be depressed over this kinda thing. well, i cant stop girls from flying at you left, right and center right???? unless i decide to play skeet shooting and start shooting them before you notice that they're coming at your face. oh well, what can i do right? i'm not your type, colour, shape and what you can call a girlfriend. MAN. i'm making myself sound pathetic but i dont care la. let this be a lesson in life for me, that i shouldn't do all the chasing as it gets me nowhere and leaves me tired. but i do enjoy seeing you and i'll miss the times we did. so yea. too bad. so sad. woo hoo. alex is dumb and pathetic. i'm WAYY out of your league and i shall leave it at that. i'll try to stop chasing (kejar-kejar) but somehow i dont think its possible.
20 hours deep
it was enough time to see that everything has changed for me
so much for birthday wishes
ive been too busy with my memories you made me
i dont think ill get over it
to be honest i cant see how this could be fair
im so alone but you seem to be just fine
dont ask me to think
good intentions wont change everything
this could be the last day i hold my breath
and stay and wait for you
20 hours deep
oh, it was enough time for you to change everything for me
20 hours deep
i'm drowning myself with thoughts of you and you're comforting
tell me how this is fair
dont ask me to think
good intentions wont change everything
this could be the last day i hold my breath
and stay and wait for you
stay away ..
stay away ..
dont ask me to think
good intentions wont change everything
this could be the last day that ii'll hold my breath and wait for you
dont ask me to think
good intentions wont change everything
this could be the last day i hold my breath and wait for you
stay away
good intentions won't change anything
yeah i'll hold my breath and wait for you
_just me_
9:33 AM
ABOUT THE ALEX
i was brought into this world by pure evil genius.
c'mon man i was raised by a pack of wolves.
but i'm still an ordinary chinese eurasian person who sorta lives off the edge.
yep i stay at yishun. its almost the edge aint it?
waiting for secondary school to end so i can get on with my miserable life.
which is actually quite good.
people tell me i'm female but i doubt.
What do you think?