Monday, March 20, 2006
burnt - perfect by flyleaf
i dont know what to write now.
i cant finish my homework.
i have too much art! i only painted one stupid mask.
jasmit is nice cos she's helping me print my art pieces!
no la joking la. jasmit is always nice.
im blogging in sentences.
my boyfriends new hair is the sex
i love my boyfriend
and his hair.
_just me_
5:59 AM
Saturday, March 18, 2006
burnt - all at sea by jamie cullum
im a big big big jazz fan
are you gonna copy me now?
cheebs. anyway i am a great jazz fan. jazz is always up there next to metalcore and so on. you know i always wanted to be a jazz singer when i grow up. now i've grown up and no im not a jazz singer. hehh
anyway. today supposed to have tuition la. saturday is my tuition day what. so the norm is that it starts at 12.30 but my brother goes first so i have to send him to my aunties hse right. so its patricks first 12.30-1.30 then mine 1.30-2.30 and then i have another one at 3-4.30. but there was a glitch today. i wake up at 10 to find nobody at home and ten bucks on the counter for me. i assumed that patrick stayed over at aunty yvonnes place since i came home late last night and everyone was already asleep. so i left the house at 11.45, reached the bus stop at 12 and took 854. perfect timing right? so i would be just in time for my tuition at 1.30 RIGHT?
wrong
on the way there i get a message from my maths tutor cancelling cos he husband had to go take out stitches *cough bullshit cough* so nevermind. i could go out and merayap or something. THEN my aunty calls me.
aunty: where are you?
me: in the 854, eunos. why?
aunty: cikgu has been waiting for you since 12.30 you know?!
me: where's patrick?
aunty: IN CAMP!
and im supposed to know he's in camp la. cheebs man. my family is pissing me off once again. i call my mother
me: WHY YOU NEVER TELL ME PATRICK WENT TO CAMP?!
mum: maybe you should have been out of your room so at least we could talk.
me: so punishment for not coming out of my room is that YOU NOT TELL ME LA!
mum: everyone else knew so why didnt you?! why didnt you ask?! i told you.....
me: *click*
i can't be bothered anymore la. serious. she's being damn unreasonable. i didnt ask cos if there is any changes in saturdays "norm" wouldntthey tell me like they usually do. she made a mistake so there. no more. and she shouldn't argue.
so i arrived at the house and everyone is yelling bla bla bla. then started tuition which was quite okay did some catatan bahasa crap. NOW my mother is so nice to me cos maybe she realised her mistake. im still pissed at her.
so anyway. now in godma's house typing this cos i need a break from all the holiday homework la. i haven't even touched it. only the vocab worksheet which is not even finished. i still have a ton of maths practice papers and 100 word meanings that i have to do. gonna die.
i have some news on the thing though. i am a bitch. i know, i accept it! i am rude. YES I AM. i know so you dont have to go tell me like it hurts my poor little innocent shit-like feelings. i have no feeling for your info. i only have hate, disgust, wrath, anger, the-want-to-mangle-your-little-lizard-like-body and pity for you. awwwww so i guess alex does have feelings. sheeesh. she is still gonna suffer.
someone else is gonna suffer too. that muh-fucking asshole who stole my music!
yes so im going back to my homework... and jamie cullum
_just me_
12:46 AM
Thursday, March 16, 2006
burnt - lost town of wandering souls by stalins war
did i tell anyone i adore stalins war?
reason for blogging: im angry
no shit alex of course you are. two fucking reasons why.
i decided to take out my angst out on my blog before i do on my guitar. kills two birds with one stone or shall i say kills two DICKS. Anyway im gonna refer to this particular person and a thing alright. okay this thing is apparently blind. she puts food in her eyes. but thats beside the point. i tell you this thing is fucking competing with me?! i mean why must you?! you siao ah! crazy. go find someone else la. you
now the second thing im pissed about is my sister took my pants! both of it. go find your own damn clothes i mean i dont steal yours anymore right! asshole. i got a gig tmr la i wanna wear my pants. not only that okay my pants is tapered so retard la. so old wear tapered. whatever la i angry la.
actually im more angry about the first one la. i hope something big falls on her. or she eats her hand by mistake. or decides to lie down in the middle of the tpe with on-going traffic (preferbly 18-wheelers) or jsut get out of my life. simple.
_just me_
6:30 AM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
burnt - those days you felt alive by spitalfield
well lemme update. its the damn march hols.
nothings up for me.
not gonna meet ryan the whole week i think =( cos he's got school and stuff. well tomorrow, gonna head to the national library tomorrow. do some art research for my "sugar skull" thingy then off to jam at sound lab WOO HOO! yay! SLIPKNOT HERE WE COME! im so damn excited. haha. meeting azhar at 430 and i guess with everyone else as well. wonder what we'll sound like besides shit.
i love him and i miss him very much.
_just me_
8:18 AM
Monday, February 27, 2006
burnt - stigmata by arch enemy
asshole asshole asshole.
im damn dumb. i shouldn't have let my body take over me. i went to sleep!!!!! im so pissed with the fact that i just had to go and sleep in the evening. im gonna be awake from now until i don't know.
this is why im blogging. im bored again.
okay lets talk about school. there was some mix up with the N lvl papers and shit. im paying for one paper that i have no intentions sitting for. asshole. maybe thats why im so pissed. stupid shitnit fuck. mrs freeman just told me to sit for the thing. sorry lah but i have no intentions la. i cant possibly take ML "A" syllabus la. i cant even cope with "B" haha. hell no. so right now, i've gotta make a decision to sit for it or not la.
after that had bio. stupid condoms. you know, if you wanna have sex with peace of mind, you have to use a condom with spermicides okay nevermind. useful info. then something bad happened, dont really wanna talk about it. well, today is a sad sad day for some of us, luckily we had giant oreos to cheer us up.
this entry is boring and again it lacks emotion
fuck.
19 questions of maths done and an absolutely boring day planned for us tomorrow.
_just me_
8:21 AM
Sunday, February 26, 2006
burnt - recovery by funeral for a friend
so well im updating maybe cos im bored. i would have updated yesterday but i still dont have my laptop. i'll be getting it back tomorrow.
i dont know why im updating seriously. maybe cos there's nothing to do. right now, leon is singing reinventing your exit
okay shall update about yesterday.
went to church, the urge wasn't there and i had butterflies returning back to that place again. met a whole bunch people that i haven't seen in ages. went in for mass but it was a bore so came out and sat downstairs sat with galissa and harsha with the intentions to stay only for awhile but started talking and lost track of time. was fun catching up and all that. laughing at the times when we were damn immature. while talking and talking all of a sudden one fag voice came out of nowhere shouting asking people to enter the mass so then harsha, galissa ryan and i ran out damn fast sia. went to hide behind a car then started talking again. we sat until mass was over then went off to siglap. was supposed go macs or something but ended up going to ryan's house and spend almost the whole night there until 4 am then went home. hah
im damn bored right now.
ehh shit there's school tomorrow.
Scared to open up these eyes
See just what's inside
This tree is dead and cold
This house is not a home
Help me now
I'm dying here all alone
This is not a new game
So don't think that you know
Casually I confide
Awake and paralyzed
Forever in one word
Forever is the longest time
It's the only cure
I'm not sure I'll survive
This is not a new game
So don't think that you know
Can you see these blood shot eyes?
And can you see...
That my strength is failing
And I can't go on this way
And this heart's not beating
It just doesn't seem the same
And my strength is failing
And I can't go on this way
Can't go on this way
Promise me, promise me
Promise me, you will not ever leave
Promise me, you will not ever leave
Promise me, you will not ever leave
Promise me, you will not ever leave
You will not ever leave
And my strength is failing
And I can't go on this way
And this heart's not beating
It just doesn't seem the same
It doesn't seem the same
It just doesn't seem the same
_just me_
6:52 AM
Friday, February 24, 2006
burnt - the only difference between martyrdom and suicide is press coverage by panic! at the disco
Applause, applause, no wait wait
Dear studio audience, I've an announcement to make:
well today i tried to rest in right but i kept waking up and falling back to sleep on objects. i slept on my earpiece, mp3, my maths textbook (don't ask how that happen. i just like to roll) then i finally managed to awaken at 2pm. watched tv, did homework, watched american idol and now on the com. wonderful.. my lifes a bore
on a much much much much lighter note, im gonna watch final destination 3 tomorrow! power la. i really wanted to watch and now im going tmr. yay! excellent.. haha. so i guess im gonna ditch the mass tmr. people tell me its a bore anyway so WHAT THE HEY! gonna watch with jayshree, sarah and xanne tmr unless there's a change of plans tomorrow.
i seriously cant wait to go back to school. i mean seriously. its gonna be a tough time looking for all my teachers so they can give me the test but what the hell right? gotta go what you gotta do. okay gonna do karangan..
now where's my kamus.
_just me_
3:38 AM